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hugging, hanging out wit friends, playing soccer, CHOCOLATE, soundtrip, singing, dancing, stargazing, BREAD, sleeping, writing, photography, and yeah. :p
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| I HATE... |
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posers, fake things, jologs.., kikays, all girls schools, some gays, gay moments [like.. being too senti and when people are acting gay], algebra, mushy songs..
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| Wui. I'm planning to move. Pero Idk wich free site thingy. lol.
Help me. :) Please? lol.
I can't find a custom module layout na for xanga eh.
But I found one sa blogspot.
Hm...
I won't shut down this site, so I could still comment all of yu's in xanga! hehe. :) Ok?
Wootwoot. I'll try and get used to blogspot first. lol. :p
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| No regrets. :)
Sa mga oras pala na ganito, malalaman mo kung sino ang totoo mong kaibigan. :) And i jus found out na marami rin pala ang nag ccare sakin. haha! Di nga.. Seryoso. :) Super thankful ako kasi may mga kaibigan ako na katulad nila. They don't even need to make me happy, coz I already am. :) I'm contented. With who I know, and who I have. With who I like, and who's keeping me happy. :) And whoever knows who that is, shhh. :) I din't move on yet. But atleast I'm trying to. I'm doing my best, and honestly.. It doesn't hurt me that much. I know people think it's hard to get over coz we were like more than a year na. Pero ewan ko. I don't feel that way. I think that there are WAY more things to do now. :) Yeah, I know once in a while I'm gonna miss him. But it's ok. It nly means that I did love him truly. And I don't regret nything we did together.
And.. For those who know us, and don't think I'm serious wit this.. I am. I really am. :) I don't mind him doing that to me. Cause I saw it coming. I knew that somehow he would like someone else. I jus din't like the fact that he said he wouldn't. He once said.. "I won't like nyone else but yu.." MY ASS! haha. Well.. That's ok. I'm not mad. I'm glad. haha. Not coz yu're gone. It wud've been nice to last longer and.. What's the point?? haha. Nothing. Nothing at all. It would've been a WASTE of time. We won't get nything from it. Happiness, yeah. But it's gotta end somehow, someway. And in the end, yu'll always seem sad and lonely. It'll take time till yu're over it. And what does that make yu? Only one thing.. Stronger. :) and supposedly, smarter. hehe. I once believed in forever. But I guess it was all a lie. A promised unfulfilled. Something not meant to be. And a sign of greater things to come. :)
No, I didn't cry. Honest. Know why? Cause he's not worth my tears. :) hehe. No, I'm not lying!! haha. Really. Talga!! Naman oh. haha. Sino ba kausap ko? hahaha! Nbbaliw? Di ah. Masaya lang talga. :) But.. I din't cry not coz I never loved him. Cause nga.. I saw this coming. I cried before. And I knew before he did it. I was ready. haha! Yeah. :) Plastic smile? Nah. Someone's making me happy nga!! hehe. He jus dsn't know it. :) No, I don't love him. Ayoko na magka bf. haha! I jus admire him. lol. Oo, crush ko xa. :) Pero nothing more. hehe. No, it's not a way of forgetting my ex... Ok, it is! hahaha. Hey, atleast he's nice and funny. :) | | |
| Ganon na lang yun. Wala na tayo.
Hindi ko akalain na magagawa mo to sakin. Kala ko iba ka. Akala ko ikaw na. Yun pala, mali ako. Ayoko na ng ganito. Walang hiya ka talaga. Wala kang pakinabang.
Ginawa ko na ang dapat kong gawin. At tama nga ako sa hinala ko na may gusto ka nga sakanya. Kung sino man yun. Well.. Yun. Ok na. Malaya ka na. Hindi na kita ipapaglaban kasi wala naman akong magagawa eh. Lahat na rin ginawa ko para sayo eh. Binigay ko ang lahat. Pero bakit ganito? Bat naging ganito yun tungo ng relasyon natin? Kala ko sabi mo 'forever'? Well.. Kung may gusto ka na nga talga sakanya, 'forever' ends today. Tska, pinagisipan ko na to eh. Oo, alam ko.. Mammiss kita. Pero di ko kayang lokohin mo ko ng harap harapan. I don't deserve that. I don't deserve to pretend that nothing's wrong and that we're both going on fine even if it's not. I don't deserve someone who isn't contented with one person. I don't deserve someone who'll break my heart and go on loving someone els jus like that. I don't deserve someone who doesn't truly love me. Who couldn't wait till I got back. Who couldn't be loyal. Who couldn't tell me erything. Someone who won't keep secrets from me. Yeah, I won't understand at first.. Give me time. And maybe I will. But don't think na I won't talga. Please lang. I thot yu were better than that? I thot yu were someone I could trust. Someone who wouldn't do this to me. I thot yu wer DIFFERENT. I guess yu're jus like others.
Pero kahit na ganon. Ok lang. Maxado pa naman akong bata para sa mga ganito eh. Thanks to miguel for helping me. And giving me advice. Here's what he said...
chels: noo.. it wasnt really a question.. twas kinda like.. wer too young to be involved in those kinds of things.. something like that..?
miggle: oh yeaah.
miggle: wag mo munang pagisipan ung mga relationship
chels: why?
miggle: wala rin purpose ang early relationship eh.
miggle: it's not like the fire's gonna last when you're actually ready
chels: oooh.. wat if it does?
miggle: well, if it does it wouldnt be as great as the start
chels: yeah.. yu gotsa point..
miggle: for me, it's best to reserve things til the time where everything would go smoothly
chels: yeah.. wen ur allowed already?
miggle: when you could actually do something.
miggle: i mean, ano ba talaga original purpose ng relationship?
miggle: diba.. the whole courtship, relationship thing.. is just a step towards marriage?
chels: yeaah.. i guess so.. pro.. wat if.. kunwari.. may nrramdaman ka talga sa taong un..?
miggle: then just wait. dont waste years of your life settling for a relationship with no purpose. you dont play around emotions. you have to be careful
miggle: anyway, you could still keep close without anything official
miggle: basta, your feelings toward people will always change every now and then. cause once you make a commitment.. there'll come a time where those feelings would just disappear.. and then you'd regret that commitment
chels: how will it jus.. disappear?
miggle: uhh stop
miggle: ganun. parang wala na ung fire
miggle: besides, relationships shouldnt be much of a priority.. because you wouldnt get much out of it except a rush of hormones.
miggle: invest in something useful like your education... relationships with your family while you have the chance to build them.
miggle: later na ung serious relationships when you actually need it.
chels: i know ur right.. but.. hay.. idk.. m confused.. ><
miggle: yeahh. you'd feel that way when you have feelings for someone. your head's logic is conflicting with your heart's desires
miggle: basta one thing i could tell you is "follow your heart" is the dumbest suckiest advice anyone could give
miggle: it's typical and it's stupid
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| Today, I watched "The Notebook". I've always wanted to watch it, but I never had the chance to. So yeah.. hehe. :) They said it makes yu cry.. I'm wondering why it din't make me cry. lol. Maybe I was jus in a really good mood, eh? :p Well.. Whatever. hehe. Lalang. :p Then when my mom came home I helped her wit stuff. Twas ok. Twas supposed to be my dads work so.. I get payed! ..I think? lol. Woot! :) I have drums tomorrow! Yeahyuh. :)
Hm.. I'm starting to get used to not talking to Inhan. I miss him at times but well.. Maybe we do need this summer to be seperated from each other, yknow? Coz at school we're like inseperable, and maybe we've been getting too much of each other. lol. --Which isn't bad, but yknow.. pra di kami magsawa sa isa't isa. lol. :) And.. to build our trust for each other. db? Yeauh! :D I jus hope nx year we get to be classmates again.. :)
Lalala.. <3 | | |
| TRUE FRIENDS.
How would yu kno if yu have them?
Well.. For (1) they don't ditch yu if they see someone more "popular" than yu. (2) They don't use yu. Like axing for money.. And never paying yu bk. (3) If when yu ax them to hang out wit yu, they don't make some lame xcuse to visit their grandmother. And (4) they don't talk behind yur back & hang out wit yu the nx day.
True - adj. Faithful, as to a friend, vow, or cause; loyal.
Friend - n. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
So.. meaning. A true friend is one who yu know, like, trust, and is faithfulor loyal to yu.
People find it hard to find "true" or bestfriends. Sometimes when yu "think" they found their forever friend. Yu start a big fight and go seperate ways. Then one argument on who gets the hot boy & they go their seperate ways. lol. When they should really ditch the hot boy. :P Ok, that was nonsense. Cross that out. lol. I'm trying to be serious here. haha. (I guess I'm not good at being serious. :p)
ANYWAY.. Ganito lang un. My definition of a true friend is one who stabs yu in the front. If yu're wondering why, (which i doubt. lol.) It's becoz.. Hm.. Let's put it this way, friends will tell yu something looks good on yu when it really doesn't, but bestfriends will say "get that crap off and try something better on!". Ano, gets mo na? lol. :)
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